why can't i forget it????

                                         Gnani's Scientific Vision      

Questioner: Dada, why is it that we can't forget the past?
 Dadashri: The past is something that you cannot forget, when you try to forget it and it also cannot be recalled when you wish to. That is called the past. All the people in this world have the desire to forget the past but without 'gnan', (Dada's scientific knowledge) the world will not fade in to oblivion. Memory exists because of your attachments and abhorrence (raag and dwesh).The greater the attachment or abhorrence for a particular thing, the more you will remember it. When a daughter-in-law goes to her mother's house, she is unable to forget her mother-in-law, only because she has abhorrence for her. She does not like her. On the other hand, she keeps thinking about her husband, because he makes her happy, and therefore there is an attachment for him. You remember what makes you the most unhappy or happy because there is abhorrence or attachment there. If you erase the association of the attachment or abhorrence, that memory will disappear. The thoughts that come automatically is memory. When the attachment and abhorrence is erased (through gnan), their memory will cease and only then will your smile exude freedom. Memory creates a pull and tension and this restricts the smile on your face. Everyone's memory differs. What you remember may not be the same as what others remember. This is because everyone's abhorrence and attachments differ. Memory exists through attachment and abhorrence. Questioner: Dada surely memory will have to be removed.
Dadashri: The memory itself tells you that it wants to be cleansed, erased. There would be utter confusion if there were no memory. What would you erase if there were no memory? How would you know where your attachment and abhorrence lie? Memory arises for its spontaneous resolution. It comes forth so the link to attachment and abhorrence may be erased. So erase whatever comes forth and when you do that, you will free yourself. You remember only because you have the link to attachment and abhorrence here. You should repent for it and make a firm resolve never to repeat that mistake and thus erase it. You can wipe it (raag-dwesh) out by doing Pratikraman and that memory will leave forever. Real gnan is the gnan that makes you forget the world. I was very short tempered, getting angry with almost everyone in the family. I would always feel that I am right in every situation, viewing everything only from my point of view. But after I started watching satsang on T.V. , there have been several positive changes in me. I got to know about the Soul. I learned that whatever is happening to me is a result of my own account. I would have several quarrels with my mother-in-law and would always remain angry with her. It would really enrage me when she would scold my children. As a result, I would shout at her and it became a habit. After coming to Dada's satsang, I learned about Pratikraman (asking for forgiveness). I also came to know about the value of human life. I understood that all these are “files” and I have to settle them with equanimity. One day, I ended up in a quarrel with my sister's mother-in-law on a small matter. But just after 15 minutes, I went to her house and asked for forgiveness by touching her feet. I experienced immense peace by doing pratikraman of my mother-in-law, my sister's mother-in-law and my husband. Even they have changed for the better. My mother-in-law even has the bhaav of coming to satsang and wishes to do darshan of the Gnani. My husband used to switch off the T.V. whenever I would watch satsang. But with the help of this satsang, I realised that all this is my own account and I can't be freed without settling them. So why should I fight with him? Shouldn't I deal with him lovingly? As a result, he would not only let me watch the Satsang on T.V. but now, he also accompanies me to satsang! Pratikraman and satsang have changed me to the extent that whenever I become free from household chores, all I remember is Dada. My attachment and abhorrence (raag-dwesh) have dimished and life has become full of love and peace. Gnani's Scientific Vision problem solution Learning through experience 
Ref: Aptvani 1

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